Cleaning up Coffee Spooge *ick*

Again with the fucking coffee?! I know this is a common bitching ground for me, but really the coffee is my arch-nemesis! I swear it is, sometimes I come in and its just glaring at me. why just the other day I swear to you i heard it fucking snicker!

I missed work yesterday, Usually I turn off the coffee pots and clean up even though I don't drink coffee (since no one else is willing to put forth the effort, if I don't do it they will just leave them there) as a example yesterday the industrial sized coffee pots were left on to boil all night. Leaving a nice big mess that it took me an hour to clean up this morning. While cleaning up the boss man comes in and asks what happened (because its not obvious or anything) He then goes, "see how important you are". Yes thank you, my importance is dependent upon the coffee pot, that got me brooding:

I used to have a job that meant something, I used to help people. I can't even explain the rush I would get when I would do something that changed someones life for the better, when they were hugging me and crying thanking me for the great job I had done.

I walked out of that job because the woman I worked with was bat shit crazy and I couldn't stand her any more.

Now I have a job working with people I really like, I get paid a couple dollars more an hour, and I can take off or call in without getting in trouble. Sounds like I should be really happy right? Don't get me wrong I love my job and AM happy, but I just feel like something is missing.

I miss at least one day a month, taking off or calling in. I can come to work 30 minutes late everyday and no one notices or cares. This would be ideal for some people, but it bothers me. I do not like not going to work it makes me feel like a slacker but still I stay home.

I don't know what to do.

I know what I want to do with my life career-wise, it will just take a lot of hard work and effort (lately these two things have been all ninja and disapeared on my ass), I can't seem to just sit down, shut up and start. I need a burst of obedience to get me going. Maybe I will start tonight. Probably not.

Lately my reading problem has gotten worse. I cleared 54 books last year and am well into 15 this year and were only 40 days into 2010. When i get a free minute and should be doing chores at home or working towards my goal. I find myself reading. It's always I'll start/finish after this book. (But really who wants to be stuck in the real world when you can live in a book)

I need to go to book readers anonymous or something.

*Sigh*

We'll I need to get back to work. hanging out on the bottom of the totem pole of the work world for another day. We will see what tomorrow brings.

~*~Toodles~*~