It's Been a While

Hello there blogger friendlies.

It's been a while, no? I'm like a blogging zombie, back from blogger death...or parenting.

Have Patience while we catch up, wander with me through yester-months.......*fuzzy/blurish/flash-back scene*

Babynator will be three months old on Monday the 4th. I can't believe it has only been three months, it feels like he's always been here. Though, at the same time I can't believe three months have gone by so fast. He is getting huge, and his little personality is blossoming. It's amazing watching him just be a tiny person, the way he studies things (mainly his hands lately) you can tell he's calculating and imagining what they are for or watching his face when he discovers something new like how to grab an object and move it back and forth, the fact that something so simple makes him so happy gives me so much hope and makes my life better. (put your freaking tissues away and stop worrying I'm still crass, rude and wrong. Still the same chick who just gave her boss a birthday card with a giant elephant butt on the front and a inside text that read "thought I'd get you a big ass card for your birthday") The babynator just added a little extra mommyness to me, but only where he's concerned. I still don't like other peoples germ breeders *smiles*.

I'm ashamed to say this but with work and Cinderella detail at home the breast-feeding was just to much for me. I felt/feel like a failure that I didn't continue, I would say I couldn't do it but that would be lying and of all my bad habits (chronic nose-picker) lying is not one of them. I just couldn't man up and handle all the extra responsibility. Yea that's right I'm a little bitch, but I think both babynator and I are benefiting a little more from the switch. He used to throw up what seemed like whole feedings both on breast milk and the first three formula's we tried. We now have settled on Enfamil which he can keep down so he seems a lot less like the next movie option for the Exorcist franchise.

I went back to work right at six weeks, it was hard at first but that had a lot to do with the daycare he was in. Due to a financial handicap (really, I should get a special parking permit for it) we had him in a home daycare to start with. I'm a pretty laid back person but I can be a little anal (mainly regarding babynator and office work), I was unhappy with how he was being taken care of so I contacted a awesome early learning/pre-school center and through some miracle I negotiated the same price I was paying at the home daycare. It has Internet monitoring and he will learn all kinds of awesomeness as he grows like sign language, Spanish, music and art classes, I'm very happy now. But on Wednesday of his last day at the home daycare I picked him up and it was just not good, the lady is lucky there were children and another mother there. I would probably be writing this from jail if it had just been us. needless to say he didn't go back for his last two days.

Work has been....um.....interesting since I came back. I am semi-seriously looking for another job (I say semi because I am not putting as much effort into the job search as I could). I've had a couple instances where I was temped to say take this job and shove it and walk out, all of which were initiated by the evil-wench I work with. But, after the last time when enough was enough I went to little boss-man and told him all that had been going on with her. He was outraged by her presumed leadership role and lording of power she doesn't have. Things have been significantly better since then, but I'm still waiting on the raise I've been asking for for about three years now, so I'm still searching the job market.

Husbinator is awesome as usual, he could talk to me more in my opinion. But I still think I'm a pretty lucky gal. You should see him with babynator, they are awesome together. My father was never more then someone who came into the house when it was time for bed and he was almost always drunk by then. So, it amazes me how great a father can be. Husbinator is out of town for work this week and although babynator is only three months old you can tell he is looking around for him, he called us last night and when babynator heard his voice he started smiling and looking around.

finally now that were somewhat caught up, here are a few more tidbits of what has been going on recently...

I have been watching Grey's anatomy lately on Netflix, I'm on season six. (Favorite Grey's qoute so far..."Please, don't cry on my ass." ~ Christina Yang. I'm addicted, I think I'm more of a McSteamy girl then a McDreamy girl.

I recently had a root canal. I have a unhealthy phobia of dentists, it takes two 10mg Valiums just to get me there for a X-ray. I had a LOT of Valium and nitrous so there was some hallucinating going on, I remember at one point thinking Grey's Anatomy wasn't real and I made it all up. I then thought what a shame it would be if Patrick Dempsey and his hair was not real.

My cousin invited us to Washington for her wedding in September, I'm not sure if we will be able to swing it (financially) but I really want to go, watching Grey's (set in Seattle) every night does not help any.

And lastly (for now) I need a friend, a best friend. I used to have one, but I left her in Maryland when I moved so we barely talk anymore. It would have been awesome to still be together though, she had her second baby the day after Babynator was born. Mainly I just need someone to talk to, go places with and share stuff with. I have friends, I even consider one of them a 'best friend' but some things I just can't talk to a guy who's a mutual friend of the husbinator and I about. I know he would keep things between us if I asked but it would just be weird to talk about some things with him.

Till next time friendlies.
~*~Toodles~*~